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Renewing the mind...

I use to hear this terminology used so loosely... "just renew your mind, change how you think" and I felt like I did more the most part. I would focus on new thoughts, new ideas etc. But I found myself at the same ole place... down and out or feeling less than. I began to go on this mental journey of "Renewing my Mind". I began to think about my thoughts and address where the root of it came from. The bulk of it was past hurt, past bad circumstances, TV and others opinions. Some of it actually came from comparing myself or situaiton and circumstances to others. I would began to think thoughts of "why  not me", "when is it my turn" "why can't I have that ", I allowed the thoughts that I wasn't worthy or accomplished because I didn't have what societies success look like, to enter into my head. I didn't finish college, I didn't have a career for years. So I felt unaccomplished and unworthy. Thru my marriage and friendships God began to help me to see beyond a degree, beyond a out of wedlock child, beyond being multiracial and see that I am chosen, that I was hand picked and custom made by Him. When I started thinking about the thoughts that would contradict God's written and spoken word over my life I began to see how to really renew my mind. I have to watch what goes in my ears, eyes and comes out of my mouth. I had to really began to look at what I was saying because it came from within. For the most part I didn't really believe half the stuff that entered my head but it sure felt real when things came up. I began to focus on God's love for me and why He created me. If the thoughts came that I am not successful, I began to remind myself of all the small accomplishments that I have had in any area. Success isn't determined by  a College Degree or a certain income bracket it too me is determined by one thing... Not Quitting! Renewing the mind requires addressing root issues, being honest with yourself and most importantly getting into your word and allowing His love to overshadow the negative seeds that were planted. It is a daily journey that I am still on... my mind and thoughts today are far more peaceful and confident then they were 5 years ago...